Broken heart

So I'm fairly sure my heart is breaking. We adopted an amazing dog this past weekend, I fell in love with her the second she came up to me an crawled onto my lap. Mind you she is a heeler lab mix so it is not like she is small. I thought my allergies would be manageable, I thought if we kept her clean and i took allergy meds we would be good.
Unfortunately that has turned out to not be the case, no matter what we've tried my allergies have attacked with a fervor I haven't seen in a while. So It is now official that we are giving he back, as many of you know i am a crier and i have she quite a few tears over this. We love Heidi, so much, but we can't give her what she needs, nor should I have to live the next 15 years of her life feeling like my legs are crawling with bugs because they itch so bad. She is being returned on Friday, and my prayer is that some amazing loving family will take her in their home and dote on her as much as we did this week. She was Jeremy's and mine first try at making a family of 3. Although we didn't succeed this time, we learned alot, and have decided to continue to enjoy being a family of two for a while until we are in a place that we can find a hypoallergenic dog that will belong to us. Hawaii is lovely, and has brought us something special and sometimes i think certain people and even certain animals (read Angel and Sparkplug/sport/snort) come into our lives to spread some love and memories.

So that's all for now, just wanted to share my thoughts. A full update on Hawaii will happen in a few days, a lot has happened and it has been awesome.

Love you all,
Aj a very tear streaked dog owner